thinking about you
and feeling so blue
I do know how to
take the belt to myself
thinking into a funk
about all the things
I need to say to you
I am honest with myself
and that means
I'm ready to grow
when I'm not doing
my time
in the prison I built
alone in my cell
my living hell
changing the past
is a hopeless business
when everyday I try
to live in peace
and know I can't live
with suicidal longings
I can't afford to act
rashly & foolishly
with all this sober
time to think
about my life
all my wrong doings
to hurt and grieve
it's hard to believe
how I allowed myself
to fall so deep
into the depths
of degeneration
living with no conscience
in the early part of my life
thoughts of an individual
not knowing wrong from right
my conscience is overwhelming
I can't take my life
or think that way
but,I have on so many past days
dwelling the hours away
I feel the pain
I break my own heart
all the memories
and a world of guilt
past the time
in this prision I built
walls are sturdy & strong
I don't have anywhere to go
nowhere to belong
I don't hide my face
all that troubles me
and keeps me from being free
I'm sure y'all are doing fine
you will always be in my mind
I'm forced to live in my head
on top of my mountain of woe
it's hard to grow
when you suffer from need
forgiveness is gold
today,a new chance
to be bold and say
"I'm going to live for today"
with this day I take a chance
to live free
and just be
me
Sobriety Blues by Texhobart on Mixcloud
I'm proud of you, my friend, good luck with the move!
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