What I Am (existentialism) Heaven In A Split Pea Shell

1. Edie Brickell & New Bohemians- What I Am
2. Forest Sun- No Regrets
3. Lou Reed- I Love You
4. Red Hot Chili Peppers- Soul To Squeeze
5. John Mellencamp- Save Some Time to Dream
6. Butthole Surfers- The Hurdy Gurdy Man
7. Jerry Garcia Band- Oh Babe It Aint No Lie
8. Elizabeth Cotten- Freight Train
9. Fred Neil- I've Got a Secret (Didn't We Shake Sugaree)
10. Laura Veirs- Mama, You've Been on My Mind
11. Geoff Muldaur- Walking to New Orleans
12. Carl LeBlanc- Indian Love Song
13. Dave Van Ronk- Green, Green Rocky Road
14. Cat Stevens- If You Want To Sing Out, Sing Out
15. Uncle Bonsai- Theme Song
16. Leo Kottke/Mike Gordon- Sweet Emotion
17. Jim White- Keep It Meaningful You All
18. Daniel Johnston- Etiquette
19. The Be Good Tanyas- The Littlest Birds
20. Sly & The Family Stone- Everybody Is A Star
21. Richard Thompson- I Want To See The Bright Lights Tonight
22. Neko Case- Buckets Of Rain

Just Trying to get it right.This is my third mix for my support group for people with mental Illness.Having real live people to mix for is such a real treat.Enjoy!


"If someone told me that I could live my life again free of depression provided I was willing to give up the gifts depression has given me--the depth of awareness, the expanded consciousness, the increased sensitivity, the awareness of limitation, the tenderness of love, the meaning of friendship, the apreciation of life, the joy of a passionate heart--I would say, 'This is a Faustian bargain! Give me my depressions. Let the darkness descend. But do not take away the gifts that depression, with the help of some unseen hand, has dredged up from the deep ocean of my soul and strewn along the shores of my life. I can endure darkness if I must; but I cannot live without these gifts. I cannot live without my soul.'"
~ David N. Elkins, Beyond Religion, p. 188

Careful Thought-out Words(for a Degenerate)

not in my dreams I've seen
human beings in remiss
human nature mixed-up in a twist
but,you don't make mistakes
to fail to distinguish between
nothing like a human thing
35 and you don't know right from wrong
and you still call yourself a man
used,abused,confused in a drunken stupor
hate their jobs to the point
all you have to do is quit
but,you are bitter and not a quitter
what are you getting
what are you giving
you don't have anyone to live up to
you are so selfish
it's the drink that has made you selfish
contradiction,you don't take care of yourself
contrary and regardless of everyone else
unmindful that the world is going on all around you
you don't do your part
you have no heart
still nothing is real
you need to awake
from the nightmare
recover & take a brake
people do feel the way you feel
other people can help you find
what is real
what is true
they both have something to do with you
a road of guilt
a road of regret
if you ever get straight
self-inflicted wounds
take the longest to heal
you're not in the position
to make a deal
if you are not at the end of your rope
well,you ought to be
from what you showed me
the night when you were getting free
you acted like an asshole and insulted me
again,you don't make mistakes
you to fail to distinguish between
nothing like a human thing
you are a degenerate
you lack balance
I can't take care of you
you need some one who cares
I'm not in a position to
brightly, I picture my life
free from your problems
you were hangin' around
when I was alone
into your hole
you only bring me down
way down in a hole
a drunk don't worry about his soul
the devil walking around town
to revert to a simple
state of mind
you are not a good person
I know your idea of fun
we are at different places
walking at different paces
I am in control of my different space
I take up
no one controls the space I take
I don't give you the power to brake
my heart
when the beer don't come to the top of your cup
why do I waste my time
with torn-strained rhymes
this is the end
of the time I have come to care
you don't deserve honesty
you don't deserve fair
you deserve that feeling
when nobody is there

George Waldrop- Careful Thought-out Words(for a Degenerate) by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Thought Mechanism- There Are Times When I Don't Know Why

1. Bright Eyes- Waste Of Paint
2. Ween- Birthday Boy
3. Sarah Lee Guthrie- Young Girl's Mind
4. Jolie Holland- Sweet Loving Man
5. Maggie Holland- Most Of The Time
6. Ryan Adams- Lovesick Blues
7. Simon & Garfunkel- A Poem On The Underground Wall [Live From New York City, 1967]
8. Wilco- Please Be Patient With Me
9. Tim Hardin- Black Sheep Boy
10. Marianne Faithfull- Visions Of Johanna
11. Melanie- Sign On the Window
12. Donovan- To Sing For You
13. Laura Veirs- Mama, You've Been on My Mind
14. Derroll Adams- Mr. Rabbit
15. Donovan- Epistle to Derroll
16. Penny Lang- Start Again
17. Bob Marley- One Love , People Get Ready
18. Peter Case- The Open Road Song
19. Beck- Blackhole
20. Hayes Carll- I Don't Wanna Grow Up

George's Computer Art

In the Holloween Spirit

c'mon carve a pumpkin
artistic & gruesome
get out the guts & seeds
eyes & nose are triangles
two teeth and a cackle laugh
I feel like Tom Hanks in Cast Away
jack-o-lantern aftermath
a new friend with a mask to play
I remember when being scared was a game
to play,to run away,always at night never in the day
once my little brother dressed up as a punk rocker
I took him trick or treating
I like that memory when my brother needed me
in the holloween spirit
thankfully my mom went to the pumpkin patch
this year I'll be here to hand out candy
now days being alone with time on my hands
daytime feelings are what really scare me
what I could have been if I didn't change
but,I went straight avoided what I call fate
I'm a better man and I don't get spooked
I will take on the holloween spirit
reminding me of my youth
I think this holiday brings on memories
for all when they were young
as I get older not as much I am scared
those things I say,"is that all there is to it"
maybe next year I will smear
butterfly paste across my face
in the holloween spirit

George Waldrop- In The Holloween Spirit by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Recovery From Within Me

I am alone
I know how to be alone
I have hope
yes,my hope is real
helps with the way
I think & feel
recovery from within me
return to health
restoration of self
and getting back
all that I've lacked
absence of something
needed or customary
greed for my needs
necessary to keep from suffering
conditions of the heart
constituted of the soul
with the oneness of profound art
conscience of mind
redeemed to be bold
something that is confessed
the reality of the truth
breaking the constraints
feeding the hungry soul
with honesty to sooth
the untamed spirit
the wildness of the youth
as I turn back the page
of the young man I used to be
blindly & benignly
sinfully self serving
my every want took the place
of what I need
like:
moral support
human kindness
understanding
until my brain did bleed
I have always love true things
my love for the truth
guided me through my self-destructive youth
now I have to hold back the tears
as I write on into my years
torturing myself trying to stay high
I bare the scars and once I almost did die
self-inflicted wounds take the longest to heal
contemplating suicide remarks
always bad ideas
no I didn't enjoy thinking
the thought mechanism was missing
why am I longing to go back?
I'm talking about things I have lacked
recovery from within me
back to stating the facts
I should have gone to school
I would be wise as an owl
now I'm stupid as a mule
best not to have any regrets
poetry is how I reflect
writing is a purpose
teaching me self-respect

George Waldrop- Recovery From Within Me by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Lonesome November Nights

**SMiLE**

1. Melvern Taylor- Sad and Blue
2. Nick Drake- Blues Run The Game
3. Jenny Scheinman- Johnsburgh, Illinois
4. Gram Parsons- November Nights
5. Jim White- Keep It Meaningful You All
6. Kris Kristofferson- Closer To The Bone
7. Todd Snider- Lonely Girl
8. Wilco- How To Fight Loneliness
9. Lucinda Williams- Lonely Girls
10. Bob Marley & The Wailers- No Woman No Cry
11. Laura Veirs- Mama, You've Been on My Mind
12. Elizabeth Cook- Heroin Addict Sister
13. Velvet Underground- Sunday Morning
14. Gal Holiday and the Honky Tonk Revue- Plastic Jesus
15. Bruce Springsteen- Reason To Believe
16. Greg Brown- Let the Mystery Be
17. Brian Wilson- Good Vibrations [SMiLE]
18. Modern Lovers- Girl friend
19. Bright Eyes- Waste Of Paint
20. Irma Thomas- It's Raining
21. Townes Van Zandt- Still Lookin' For You

November Nights

By: Gram Parsons

You say that you're restless
You say that you know me too well
You've seen all my best and you've heard
all the stories I tell
You think you've been taken for granted,
you're probably right.

I remember a November Night,
when the dawn on your doorway
shone white with frost
and the soft love that always began
with the touch of your hand
and recall the mornings that tossed
your hair in the wind.

Time's made it meaningless
I'm not the same, you can tell
But whyam I leaving
unless time had only meant well?

There's nothing left now to excite you...
no reason to try.

I remember a candlelit sky
and the summer surrounding the ground
where you and I lay
and though we were always alone
with our secretsknown,
we both were aware and afraid
the closeness might end.

My love's like a dancer
she weaves through the dangers complete
with well rehearsed answers and
rational reasons for feet.

But if it decreases or ceases to always be right
I remember a November Night
when the dawn on your doorway
shone white with frost
and the soft love that always began
with the touch of your hand
and recall the mornings that to

Happy Holloween- Jack-O-Lantern

Last Thoughts On Woody Guthrie- Bob Dylan

When yer head gets twisted and yer mind grows numb
When you think you're too old, too young, too smart or too dumb
When yer laggin' behind an' losin' yer pace
In a slow-motion crawl of life's busy race
No matter what yer doing if you start givin' up
If the wine don't come to the top of yer cup
If the wind's got you sideways with with one hand holdin' on
And the other starts slipping and the feeling is gone
And yer train engine fire needs a new spark to catch it
And the wood's easy findin' but yer lazy to fetch it
And yer sidewalk starts curlin' and the street gets too long
And you start walkin' backwards though you know its wrong
And lonesome comes up as down goes the day
And tomorrow's mornin' seems so far away
And you feel the reins from yer pony are slippin'
And yer rope is a-slidin' 'cause yer hands are a-drippin'
And yer sun-decked desert and evergreen valleys
Turn to broken down slums and trash-can alleys
And yer sky cries water and yer drain pipe's a-pourin'
And the lightnin's a-flashing and the thunder's a-crashin'
And the windows are rattlin' and breakin' and the roof tops a-shakin'
And yer whole world's a-slammin' and bangin'
And yer minutes of sun turn to hours of storm
And to yourself you sometimes say
"I never knew it was gonna be this way
Why didn't they tell me the day I was born"
And you start gettin' chills and yer jumping from sweat
And you're lookin' for somethin' you ain't quite found yet
And yer knee-deep in the dark water with yer hands in the air
And the whole world's a-watchin' with a window peek stare
And yer good gal leaves and she's long gone a-flying
And yer heart feels sick like fish when they're fryin'
And yer jackhammer falls from yer hand to yer feet
And you need it badly but it lays on the street
And yer bell's bangin' loudly but you can't hear its beat
And you think yer ears might a been hurt
Or yer eyes've turned filthy from the sight-blindin' dirt
And you figured you failed in yesterdays rush
When you were faked out an' fooled white facing a four flush
And all the time you were holdin' three queens
And it's makin you mad, it's makin' you mean
Like in the middle of Life magazine
Bouncin' around a pinball machine
And there's something on yer mind you wanna be saying
That somebody someplace oughta be hearin'
But it's trapped on yer tongue and sealed in yer head
And it bothers you badly when your layin' in bed
And no matter how you try you just can't say it
And yer scared to yer soul you just might forget it
And yer eyes get swimmy from the tears in yer head
And yer pillows of feathers turn to blankets of lead
And the lion's mouth opens and yer staring at his teeth
And his jaws start closin with you underneath
And yer flat on your belly with yer hands tied behind
And you wish you'd never taken that last detour sign
And you say to yourself just what am I doin'
On this road I'm walkin', on this trail I'm turnin'
On this curve I'm hanging
On this pathway I'm strolling, in the space I'm taking
In this air I'm inhaling
Am I mixed up too much, am I mixed up too hard
Why am I walking, where am I running
What am I saying, what am I knowing
On this guitar I'm playing, on this banjo I'm frailin'
On this mandolin I'm strummin', in the song I'm singin'
In the tune I'm hummin', in the words I'm writin'
In the words that I'm thinkin'
In this ocean of hours I'm all the time drinkin'
Who am I helping, what am I breaking
What am I giving, what am I taking
But you try with your whole soul best
Never to think these thoughts and never to let
Them kind of thoughts gain ground
Or make yer heart pound
But then again you know why they're around
Just waiting for a chance to slip and drop down
"Cause sometimes you hear'em when the night times comes creeping
And you fear that they might catch you a-sleeping
And you jump from yer bed, from yer last chapter of dreamin'
And you can't remember for the best of yer thinking
If that was you in the dream that was screaming
And you know that it's something special you're needin'
And you know that there's no drug that'll do for the healin'
And no liquor in the land to stop yer brain from bleeding
And you need something special
Yeah, you need something special all right
You need a fast flyin' train on a tornado track
To shoot you someplace and shoot you back
You need a cyclone wind on a stream engine howler
That's been banging and booming and blowing forever
That knows yer troubles a hundred times over
You need a Greyhound bus that don't bar no race
That won't laugh at yer looks
Your voice or your face
And by any number of bets in the book
Will be rollin' long after the bubblegum craze
You need something to open up a new door
To show you something you seen before
But overlooked a hundred times or more
You need something to open your eyes
You need something to make it known
That it's you and no one else that owns
That spot that yer standing, that space that you're sitting
That the world ain't got you beat
That it ain't got you licked
It can't get you crazy no matter how many
Times you might get kicked
You need something special all right
You need something special to give you hope
But hope's just a word
That maybe you said or maybe you heard
On some windy corner 'round a wide-angled curve

But that's what you need man, and you need it bad
And yer trouble is you know it too good
"Cause you look an' you start getting the chills

"Cause you can't find it on a dollar bill
And it ain't on Macy's window sill
And it ain't on no rich kid's road map
And it ain't in no fat kid's fraternity house
And it ain't made in no Hollywood wheat germ
And it ain't on that dimlit stage
With that half-wit comedian on it
Ranting and raving and taking yer money
And you thinks it's funny
No you can't find it in no night club or no yacht club
And it ain't in the seats of a supper club
And sure as hell you're bound to tell
That no matter how hard you rub
You just ain't a-gonna find it on yer ticket stub
No, and it ain't in the rumors people're tellin' you
And it ain't in the pimple-lotion people are sellin' you
And it ain't in no cardboard-box house
Or down any movie star's blouse
And you can't find it on the golf course
And Uncle Remus can't tell you and neither can Santa Claus
And it ain't in the cream puff hair-do or cotton candy clothes
And it ain't in the dime store dummies or bubblegum goons
And it ain't in the marshmallow noises of the chocolate cake voices
That come knockin' and tappin' in Christmas wrappin'
Sayin' ain't I pretty and ain't I cute and look at my skin
Look at my skin shine, look at my skin glow
Look at my skin laugh, look at my skin cry
When you can't even sense if they got any insides
These people so pretty in their ribbons and bows
No you'll not now or no other day
Find it on the doorsteps made out-a paper mache¥
And inside it the people made of molasses
That every other day buy a new pair of sunglasses
And it ain't in the fifty-star generals and flipped-out phonies
Who'd turn yuh in for a tenth of a penny
Who breathe and burp and bend and crack
And before you can count from one to ten
Do it all over again but this time behind yer back
My friend
The ones that wheel and deal and whirl and twirl
And play games with each other in their sand-box world
And you can't find it either in the no-talent fools
That run around gallant
And make all rules for the ones that got talent
And it ain't in the ones that ain't got any talent but think they do
And think they're foolin' you
The ones who jump on the wagon
Just for a while 'cause they know it's in style
To get their kicks, get out of it quick
And make all kinds of money and chicks
And you yell to yourself and you throw down yer hat
Sayin', "Christ do I gotta be like that
Ain't there no one here that knows where I'm at
Ain't there no one here that knows how I feel
Good God Almighty
THAT STUFF AIN'T REAL"

No but that ain't yer game, it ain't even yer race
You can't hear yer name, you can't see yer face
You gotta look some other place
And where do you look for this hope that yer seekin'
Where do you look for this lamp that's a-burnin'
Where do you look for this oil well gushin'
Where do you look for this candle that's glowin'
Where do you look for this hope that you know is there
And out there somewhere
And your feet can only walk down two kinds of roads
Your eyes can only look through two kinds of windows
Your nose can only smell two kinds of hallways
You can touch and twist
And turn two kinds of doorknobs
You can either go to the church of your choice
Or you can go to Brooklyn State Hospital
You'll find God in the church of your choice
You'll find Woody Guthrie in Brooklyn State Hospital

And though it's only my opinion
I may be right or wrong
You'll find them both
In the Grand Canyon
At sundown

Bob Dylan- Last Thoughts On Woody Guthrie by Texhobart on Mixcloud

The Death of The Smoker(Out of Fire & Ash)

two separate places
walking at different paces
taking up empty spaces
I am in this world
I am not of this world
misunderstanding the oneness of this world
it all comes down to you and me
we can't be friends
so just let it be
you don't know what love is...
I am free
your emotions tangle
as your guitar jangles
you yell at yourself
in desperate tones
call yourself stupid
your ignorance groans
you hate yourself
my blues do moan
I can't have any part of you
I need people around me
that love true things
yes,searching & seeking the truth
feeds the soul like a new thing
learned,each one teach one
you I would love to burn
but, in my kind way
I shall live full & free
of you,just let it be
no smoking,see

The Death of The Smoker(Out of Fire & Ash) by Texhobart on Mixcloud

How to be Alone

I taught myself to be alone
how I lived in the country
I learned from myself about
what is sadness
what is beautiful
I taught myself to be alone
even when I didn't like it
it takes a strong will to get by alone
most people can't do it
they are nothing when they are alone
I taught myself to be alone
I am still always wanting for some one to say hello
I have taught myself to be tolerant of myself
some people think it would feel like a prison
concern primarily with my own thoughts and feelings
but,I think I am a free-thinking man
deep within my profound mental activity
I taught myself to be alone
sometimes my self-esteem may vary
causing to be different from something else
no one is giving me moral support
no one is helping with positive input
I have to be my own teacher
the student of my soul
I listen to the wind blowing through my soul
within the safety and comfort
of the change of my recovery
I taught myself to be alone
I had to be there for myself
in my times of worry & heartache
hoping for some one to reach out to me
but, no one does and I feel needy
I know it's going to get better
when I have people around I can trust
it's in these human things
pertaining to the social aspect of people
that I find comfort and solace
alleviate or relieve my blues weary mind
time has taught me how to live free
free from suffering anxiety & sorrow
I have the chance to make good on this life
touching the people I know and care about
I tell myself alone ain't so bad
but,I have no one to remember with
I tell myself alone ain't so bad
but, the days creep into years
I tell myself alone ain't so bad
I taught myself to be alone

George Waldrop- How To Be Alone by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Covers from Mr. Square

1. Jack Johnson- We're Going to Be Friends (The White Stripes)
2. Three Legged Fox- I Am (That I Am) (Peter Tosh)
3. Katherine Ramirez- Going to California (Led Zeppelin)
4. Horse Feathers- Drain You (Nirvana)
5. Sun Kil Moon- I'll Be There (Jackson 5)
6. Youn Sun Nah- Jockey Full Of Bourbon (Tom Waits)
7. Anders Parker- Coming Down Again (The Rolling Stones)
8. Kathryn Williams- Candy Says (Lou Reed)
9. Lisa Wahlandt- Enjoy The Silence (Depeche Mode)
10. Custom Kings- Boys Of Summer (Don Henley)
11. Jacob Golden- Cry Baby Cry (The Beatles)
12. Jimmy Scott- Almost Blue (Elvis Costello)
13. Marc Cohn- The Only Living Boy in New York (Paul Simon)
14. Oliver Swain- I'm On Fire (Bruce Springsteen)
15. The Wailin' Jennys- Old Man (Neil Young)
16. Vetiver- The Swimming Song (Loudon Wainwright III)
17. Denison Witmer- I'll Keep It with Mine (Bob Dylan)
18. Crooked Still- Last Fair Deal Gone Down (Robert Johnson)
19. Great Lake Swimmers & T. Dekker- Song Sung Blue (Neil Diamond)
20. Jessica Lea Mayfield- Words of Love (Buddy Holly)
21. Cry Cry Cry- Lord, I Have Made You a Place in My Heart (Greg Brown)
22. Teddy Thompson + Rufus Wainwright- King of the Road (Roger Miller)
23. Ben Gibbard / Feist- Train Song (Vashti Bunyan)
    

Cheaters,Liars,Outlaws & Fallen Angels

1. Mary Gauthier- Last Of The Hobo Kings [Between Daylight And Dark]
2. Mary Gauthier- Camelot Motel [Filth & Fire]
3. Mary Gauthier- The Foundling [The Foundling]
4. Mary Gauthier- Empty Spaces [Mercy Now]
5. Mary Gauthier- Wheel Inside The Wheel [Mercy Now]
6. Mary Gauthier- I Drink [Mercy Now]
7. Mary Gauthier- March 11, 1962 [The Foundling]
8. Mary Gauthier- The Other Side Of Free [Dixie Kitchen]
9. Mary Gauthier- The Sun Fades The Color of Everything [Filth & Fire]
10. Mary Gauthier- I Don't Know Nothing About Love [Dixie Kitchen]
11. Mary Gauthier- Drag Queens in Limousines [Genesis]
12. Mary Gauthier- Long Way To Hell [Filth & Fire]
13. Mary Gauthier- Falling Out Of Love [Mercy Now]
14. Mary Gauthier- Walk Through The Fire [Filth & Fire]
15. Mary Gauthier- Thanksgiving [Between Daylight And Dark]
16. Mary Gauthier- Christmas In Paradise [Filth & Fire]
17. Mary Gauthier- I Ain't Got No Home [Genesis]

Mary Gauthier is so skillful with her songwriting it makes me proud to have gusto to put together this mix.She is a beautiful songwriter...

I hope everyone gets to take in her talent.Enjoy!

Last Of The Hobo Kings

Steam Train Maury died last night
His wife Wanda by his side
Caught the Westbound out of here
Hopped the high irons to the by and by
They say he jumped ten thousand trains
Rode a million miles for free
Helped out at VA hospitals and penitentiary’s
Dandy Dave, Rusty Nails and Sweet Lady Sugar Cane
Dead Eye Kate and the Baloney Kid raise their cups tonight in Steam Train’s name
Senators, congressmen, puppets on a string
Among the windswept vagabonds Steam Train was the king
The last of the hobo kings, the last of the hobo kings

Now bums just drink and wander round
Tramps dream and wander too
But a hobo was a pioneer who preferred to work for food
He knew how his nation’s doing
By the length of a side walk cigarette butt
Born with an aching wanderlust
Embedded in his gut
Hounded, beaten, laughed at, broke
Chased out of every town
With a walking stick scepter
And a shredded coffee can crown
The last of the hobo king, the last of the hobo kings

The last free men are hoboes
Steinbeck said, and he paid cash
And the stories that he bought from them
Helped write the Grapes of Wrath
But boxcars have been sealed for years
And trespassers do time
And the railroad yards are razor wired
And hoboing’s a crime
So here’s to you Steam Train Maury
Hold that Westbound tight
As you ride off into history
The last hobo, the last ride
The last of the hobo king, the last of the hobo kings

Rejoice In The Blue Notes In God's House

Love,Peace & Happiness

This was made to share in my new support group for people with mental illnesses.Since I moved I have a group to go to in walking distance from my house.I love it.Enjoy!

1. Lesley Riddle- Step by Step
2. Hobart Smith- Uncloudy Day
3. Mississippi John Hurt- Beulah Land
4. Otha Turner;Corey Harris- Lay My Burden Down
5. Caroline Herring- Lay My Burden Down
6. The Staple Singers- Be Careful of Stones That You Throw
7. Hank Williams- Farther Along
8. Washington Phillips- What Are They Doing In Heaven Today
9. Bob Dylan- Every Grain Of Sand
10. The Paschall Brothers- Ease My Troublin' Mind
11. Eric Bibb- With My Maker I Am One
12. Rev.Pearly Brown- Help me to understand
13. The Carter Family- The Sun of the Soul
14. the Gourds- Hallelujah Shine
15. The Paschall Brothers- God Said He Would Move / On The Right Road Now
16. Pops Staples- Why Am I Treated So Bad
17. Kid Prince Moore- Sign Of Judgement
18. Paul Robeson- All God's Children Got Wings
19. Martin Luther King- I Have A Dream Speech
20. Brother Kirk- The Ballad of MLK
21. Nina Simone- Why (The King Of Love Is Dead)
22. Woody Guthrie- This Land is Your Land

Life Is Too Short To Love Everybody & Too Long To Hate

1. The Gourds- Steeple Full Of Swallows
2. David Grisman, John Hartford & Mike Seeger- Windy Mountain
3. Robert Earl Keen- The Front Porch Song (Live)
4. Michael Jerome Browne & The Twin Rivers String Band- Pay Day
5. Lisa Loeb and Elizabeth Mitchell- Big Rock Candy Mountain
6. Mike Seeger- Jennie Jenkins
7. Tom Paxton- I Remember Loving You
8. Tex Ritter- Rye Whiskey
9. Stumps duh Clown- Where I'm Bound
10. The Badgett Sister- Travelling Shoes
11. Eilen Jewell- You Can't Take My Song Away
12. Todd Snider- The Ballad of the Devil's Backbone Tavern
13. Melanie- Carolina In My Mind
14. Old Crow Medicine Show- Poor Man
15. Skip James- Keep Your Lamp Trimmed And Burning
16. Tara Nevins- Fall on My Knees
17. Reeltime Travelers- Halleluiah
18. Otha Turner- Shimmy She Wobble II
19. Billy Joe Shaver- Serious Souls
20. Nanci Griffith- Can't Help But Wonder Where I'm Bound
21. Tim O'brien- Lay Down Your Weary Tune
22. Robert Earl Keen- The Road Goes On Forever

Thinking About The Grace To Think

Thinking About The Grace To Think intro

What is poetry?
I looked it up:
the art of rhythmical composition, written or spoken, for exciting pleasure by beautiful,

imaginative, or elevated thoughts.

Thinking About The Grace To Think
is apart of me.When I listen it shows the reality of me.I like how I see myself in this light.
I hope you find my poetry to be unpretentious and bright.A poet is a naked man.I

understand this completely.As I bare my soul,I give to you freely some you may

understand me better.I would like to be your friend.

Poetry has helped me to listen better and listening is one of the nicest things you can do

for some one.

1. Thinking About The Grace To Think intro
2. George Waldrop- The Wind of My Soul
3. George Waldrop- Hard Times Ain't Gonna Rule My Mind
4. George Waldrop- Serendipity of Mental Illness
5. George Waldrop- Disability In Mind(78's & Dreams)
6. George Waldrop- Ode To Bent Butts & Cigarette Stubs
7. George Waldrop- Holy Are The Visions(Change)
8. George Waldrop- I Am A Good Person
9. George Waldrop- The Walkin' Man
10. George Waldrop- Heart Full of Rain
11. George Waldrop- Breaking The Constraints of a Individual
12. George Waldrop- Recovery In Mind
13. George Waldrop- Exclusion of All Else
14. George Waldrop- Many Ways To Live
    
15. George Waldrop- The Way People Are
16. George Waldrop- Bringing Reality Back Down Into Perspective
    
17. George Waldrop- Afternoon Beautyshop Charms
    
18. George Waldrop- Love Changes
19. George Waldrop- The Artist Among The Flowers(For Daniel Johnston)
    
20. George Waldrop- Betwixt Pickin' & Weedin'(all summer)
21. George Waldrop- Sobriety Blues

George Waldrop- Thinking About The Grace To Think by Texhobart on Mixcloud

The Wind of My Soul

disappear into the mirror
where it takes me
my music only knows
I don't know how to be alone
the hurtful & inconvenient truth
I find beauty in the master's hand
you can't fool the youths
god only knows where the songs go
I feel the wind of my soul
the season and the leaves blow
my rain can is full
from the weeds in my heart
and the garden of my mind
time is the place I'm in
space is the empty hand
the memories of the dream
understanding the truth of my being
wondering aimlessly
through the flowers
artist in the garden
none of these flowers are alike
snowflakes on the wind of change
enough to be celebrated
observable change

George Waldrop- The Wind of My Soul by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Rust Belt Jessie- Bound For Glory- Big Rock Candy Mountain

Jessie Lynn- Bound For Glory- Big Rock Candy Mountain by Texhobart on Mixcloud

How To Live Alone

Many Ways To Live

1. Jim White- Keep It Meaningful You All
2. Tom Waits- Another Man's Vine
3. David Dondero- Lone Rose
4. Johnny Dowd- Average Guy
5. Lou Reed- So Alone
6. The Rolling Stones- Who's Been Sleeping Here?
7. Ray Charles- Alone In The City
8. T. Rex- Spaceball Ricochet
9. Joe Strummer- Diggin The New
10. Ralph McTell- One Too Many Mornings
11. Todd Snider- Lonely Girl
12. Sonny & The Sunsets- Too Young To Burn
13. The Duhks- It's Alright Ma (I'm Only Bleeding)
14. Syd Barrett- Bob Dylan Blues
15. Donovan- Mellow Yellow (Live on BBC radio 1967)
16. Robert Earl Keen- Lonely Feeling
17. Cat Stevens- Maybe You're Right
    
18. George Waldrop- Many Ways To Live

Many Ways To Live

I have lived this life in many ways
walked the pathway less traveled
I've seen the tracks & footprints of other men
sometimes I chose not be who I am
to live on another man's vine
life is a collective scheme
I let the visionaries guide the way
it turned me into a stranger when I look close
I followed the pathway of drunk libertines
now they are ghosts on the crowded steets of my mind
now places I used to walk come back to me in scenes
when I am working at my desk
people and places come back to me in scenes
life is a collective scheme
I let people and things change and define me
a freethinker since I changed
I know how to be alone
working on my self-esteem
realistic respect for or favorable impression
I am the oneself,myself and the reality of me
patiently I sit through a nicotine fit
with fortitude and calm I know I belong
I am not born to smoke
I hate trendy things
like going along with the crowd
I've lived that way too
t-shirts & baseball caps that say nothing important
it's only now that I realize my individuality
and my personal nature is soo important
enough to believe in the reality of me
I've taken the road to recovery
I've taken the responsibility for me
my mental health
how I see myself in this light
I ride on the winds of change
I feel I will be alright
endless revisions
and hard decisions
make me who I am
acceptance & approval
of myself
how I want to live
making it easy to love me
how I want to live
to give my love in return
how I want to live

George Waldrop- Many Ways To Live by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Hard Times Ain't Gonna Rule My Mind

I've paid my dues getting through
benignly I sat and watched dull rainy days
I look up to the sky and the time passes me by
blind for time in these daytime emotions
softly the blues moan and I think of rhymes
Hard Times Ain't Gonna Rule My Mind


these winds of change chill me right to the bone
put another pot coffee on,as I sit home alone
days are filled with real things like my prayers
softly I mumble to myself about my wants & cares
in my mind my needs are underlined
Hard Times Ain't Gonna Rule My Mind


endless revisions and the cigarettes are smoking by themselves
safe and isolated from this mean old world
hula-hoops & therapy groups
I stop the clock to remember only humans are kind
living inbetween intimacy vs. isolation of development in my time
Hard Times Ain't Gonna Rule My Mind

George Waldrop- Hard Times Ain't Gonna Rule My Mind by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Tangled Up In Blue By: Bob Dylan

Tangled Up In Blue

Early one mornin’ the sun was shinin’

I was layin’ in bed

Wond’rin’ if she’d changed at all

And I was standin’ on the side of the road

Rain fallin’ on my shoes

Heading out for the East Coast

Lord knows I’ve paid some dues gettin’ through

Tangled up in blue

Split up on a dark sad night

Both agreeing it was best

As I was walkin’ away

“We’ll meet again someday on the avenue”

Tangled up in blue

I had a job in the great north woods

Working as a cook for a spell

Workin’ for a while on a fishin’ boat

The past was close behind

But she never escaped my mind, and I just grew

Tangled up in blue

She was workin’ in a topless place

And I stopped in for a beer

I just kept lookin’ at the side of her face

In the spotlight so clear

And later on as the crowd thinned out

She was standing there in back of my chair

I muttered somethin’ underneath my breath

She studied the lines on my face

Tangled up in blue

Then she opened up a book of poems

And glowed like burnin’ coal

Pourin’ off of every page

Like it was written in my soul from me to you

Tangled up in blue

In a basement down the stairs

There was music in the cafés at night

And revolution in the air

Then he started into dealing with slaves

And something inside of him died

She had to sell everything she owned

And froze up inside

And when finally the bottom fell out

The only thing I knew how to do

Was to keep on keepin’ on like a bird that flew

Tangled up in blue

So now I’m goin’ back again

I don’t know what they’re doin’ with their lives

Headin’ for another joint

We just saw it from a different point of view

Tangled up in blue

Bob Dylan- Tangled Up In Blue by Texhobart on Mixcloud

My Shadow

Can souls be saved in outer space?

1. Paleo- My Shadow
2. Townes Van Zandt- Just Like Tom Thumb's Blues
3. Drive-By Truckers- Angels and Fuselage
4. Jessica Lea Mayfield- Trouble
5. Hank Williams III- Thrown Out Of The Bar
6. Dr Ross- Mean Old World
7. Charlie Parr- For The Drunkard's Mother
8. Gillian Welch- Hard Times
9. Mary Gauthier- Karla Faye
10. Low Tide Drifters- A Prayer For Josseline
11. Santony and the Johnsons- I Was Young When I Left Home
12. Ralph McTell- Rosalinda
13. Taarka- My Angeline
14. Robert Hunter- Shelter From the Storm
15. Isobel Campbell & Mark Lanegan- Black Mountain
16. Stead Baker- Body On Fire
17. Tom Waits- 'T 'Aint No Sin
18. Jim White- Esoteric Text Found In A Religious Garbage Can

Just another mix about girls,dylan covers,angels,substance abuse,jesus,sin,fire & aliens.Ordinary to say in the least.Cheers!

How People Are

in the mist and clouded visions
emotional teardrops
and hard decisions
I hold on to myself
endless revisions
and what I am supposed to be
time is an open book
space is the reality
when I take another look
at all my complaints
lamentation and the time it took
they leave marks
people : ugliness
evil hearts
they get something from being mean
it's dumb,it's not smart
the world gets me down
the way people are
painted on frowns
benignly self-serving
I see them driving around town
dysfunctional without respect
for their parents
it's not love they reflect
for the good people
it's honor they neglect
to be remiss in the care
of the ones that love them the best
how do they dare
disrespect our mother
make her flat-iron her hair
most people do what's easy
like watch T.V.
it's hard to give another dignity
and accept people for what they are

George Waldrop- The Way People Are by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Latch-Key Kid Lullabys

djtrish's birthday mix

1. Josh White Jr.- Delicate Balance
2. Leo Kottke- Running Up The Stairs
3. Johnny Irion- Fragile Humans
4. The Waitresses- No Guilt
5. Wilco- Please Be Patient With Me
6. Mavis Staples- At the End of the Day
7. Lou Reed- Set the Twilight Reeling
8. Toshi Reagon- You
9. Uncle Bonsai- In the Suburbs
10. Cowboy Junkies- Oregon Hill
11. Victoria Williams- What A Wonderful World
12. Tony Bennett- Ac-Cent-Tchu-Ate The Positive
13. The Greenbriar Boys- At the End of a Long, Lonely Day
14. Solomon Burke- Thank You
15. Todd Snider- The Ballad Of The Kingsmen
16. Neil Young- Melllow My Mind
17. The Boxmasters- 20 Years Ago
18. Chris Isaak- Life Will Go On
19. The Beat Farmers- Reason To Believe
20. Melvern Taylor And His Fabulous Meltones- Love Songs for Losers
21. Daniel Johnston- Love Will See You Through [Bonus Track]

Life is too short to spend it alone.I been down this long twisted road and I've faced this world alone.Now,I have a reason to believe.This mix goes out to you djtrish.Happy Birthday!

Reason To Believe

Songwriters: AUSTIN, DALLAS L/RICHIE, LIONEL/REYES, TONY

Seen a man standin’ over a dead dog lyin’ by the highway in a ditch
He’s lookin’ down kinda puzzled pokin’ that dog with a stick
Got his car door flung open he’s standin’ out on highway 31
Like if he stood there long enough that dog’d get up and run
Struck me kinda funny seem kinda funny sir to me
Still at the end of every hard day people find some reason to believe

Now Mary Lou loved Johnny with a love mean and true
She said baby I’ll work for you everyday and bring my money home to you
One day he up and left her and ever since that
She waits down at the end of that dirt road for young Johnny to come back
Struck me kinda funny funny yea indeed how at the end of every hard earned day you can find some reason to believe

Take a baby to the river Kyle William they called him
Wash the baby in the water take away little Kyle’s sin
In a whitewash shotgun shack an old man passes away take the body to the graveyard and over him they pray Lord won’t you tell us,
Tell us what does it mean
At the end of every hard earned day people find some reason to believe

Congregation gathers down by the riverside
Preacher stands with his bible, groom stands waitin’ for his bride
Congregation gone and the sun sets behind a weepin’ willow tree
Groom stands alone and watches the river rush on so effortlessly
Wonderin’ where can his baby be still at the end of every hard earned day people find some reason to believe

Heart Full of Rain

she walks across the room
looks out of her window
sounds gently tapping
rooms, roof & walls
staring out at the haze
features of white & gray
on the skyscape
the puddles in the parking lot
heart full of cold southern rain
gentle sound of thunder in the background
as she listens to my half of
rainy day women
shapes of clouds
deep into the night
she sees it through the porchlight
you let go of the ones you love best
self-control,let it roll
all the waiting
tired of being alone
she sheds many tears
her emotions,getting on in years
no more dysfunctional relationships
she can't stand the guilt
a room full of rain & guilt
her flower does wilt
chasing that old-time feeling
when she was good
how did it come to this
talking about the rain
always back to the rain
lonely rain

George Waldrop- Heart Full of Rain by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Speaking From The Heart & Mind

I'm a poet who doesn't like to rhyme
see the colors shine
from these emotions in your mind
combinations of words
and torn-strained rhymes
the nature of change
keep you heart open
joy,sorrow,fear,hate & love
like a child afraid of change
peace sign and the image of a dove
from the cradle to the universe
condition of being oneself
joy,sorrow,fear,hate & love
see the colors shine
from these emotions in your mind
hold back the tears
keep you heart open
don't give up
giving yourself to another
hang-ups will get you down
keep you heart open
joy,sorrow,fear,hate & love
your feeling will carry on
peace sign and the image of a dove
see the colors shine
from these emotions in your mind
without hope of being yourself
to keep,to give away
when you give freely
and let the other person go
you can still keep them in your heart
anything is not better than losing your identity
your feelings will carry on
see the colors shine
from these emotions in your mind
the shelter of your mind
the nature of change
keep you heart open
joy,sorrow,fear,hate & love
get your house in order
peace sign and the image of a dove
get plenty of rest
problems & needs
keep you from feeling free
to be free together
is a good goal to have
better together
to late to turn back now
or say farewell
I carry you in my heart
everywhere I go
I want you to know
how we lived together
and how we grow
the nature of change
keep you heart open
hold on to your emotions
joy,sorrow,fear,hate & love
locked under your emotions
peace sign and the image of a dove
I have felt like that before
self-control
hold on
hold on
hold on
to your
emotions

George Waldrop- Speaking From The Heart & Mind by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Identity : Condition of Being Oneself

Please Stay,Okay

1. Bob Weir- Looks Like Rain
2. Lisa Loeb- Stay (I Miss You)
3. Jack Johnson- Better Together
4. Hem- Too Late To Turn Back Now
5. Thurston Moore- Illuminine
6. Lucinda Williams- Little Angel, Little Brother
7. Beck- Little One
8. The Sixth Great Lake- Shade of Love
9. Emaluna- Heart Open Wide
10. Cassette- Hold You
11. Lou Reed- Hang on to Your Emotions
12. Uncle Bonsai- Skin Deep (Live)
13. Amos Lee- Arms Of A Woman
14. Edie Brickel & the New Bohemians- He Said
15. Amy Speace- Make Me Lonely Again
16. Paul Simon- Kathy's Song
17. Ramblin' Jack Elliott- Lay Lady Lay
18. Dave Van Ronk- Another Time and Place
19. Bob Dylan- Make You Feel My Love
20. Leonard Cohen- Suzanne

An imaginary relationship mix.I'm so pathetic because,I have no real relationship of my own to be in.I like this,how it turned out.Mixing and longing to be with a woman again has really been on my mind lately.Having a woman to hold and comfort with conversation and human things.I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me.I miss having a woman around to share my poetry with.Some one who knows what poetry is.Have mercy on the lonely.The lonely are free.So much of relationships have to deal with losing oneself in the other person.I will never make that mistake again.Enjoy!

Ode To Bent Butts & Cigarette Stubs

5 cent to 11 cent jones
look in the gutter
roll 'em bones
for something to smoke
bought a pack
roll 'em bones
got the jones underwraps
a spectacular october day
feels like may
on a large-scale display
fall comes crawling in on it's knees
feel the cool breeze
waiting for fallen leaves
waiting for the changing colors
and mother nature's beautiful decay
I'm happy my jones went away
another day i'll say I quit
searching the ground for
bent butts & cigarette stubs
doesn't make me feel very good
how the people see me
in my neighborhood
I don't want to feel like a bum
and about my health
a poorman's 5 cent jones
in his empty pockets
nothing more than what he owns
where is the dignity in that?
dirty habits have got you flat
broke it ain't no joke
living without a hope
doing things that make you sad
a cigarette makes me glad
you get nothing when you quit
satisfied to fill your lungs with smoke
and you smile all the time
now it's the 11 cent jones
that you feel down to your bones
I wasn't born to smoke
or be in the poorhouse
a pack cost $5 dollars
and it makes me feel bad
to let myself down
because,I'm bigger than that
anyone can smoke
it takes a man to stand up
and say I am quitting for today
I care about my health
I care about myself
do it for me

George Waldrop- Ode To Bent Butts & Cigarette Stubs by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Moving On Down The River

moving/traveling/rambling/leaving

1. [Texas Hobart] Ralph McTell- Somewhere Down The Road
2. [Jessie Lynn] Tom Waits- Home I'll Never Be
3. [Texas Hobart] Jim White- If Jesus Drove A Motor Home
4. [Jessie Lynn] The Tumbleweeds- My Heavenly Home
5. [Texas Hobart] Son Volt- Going, Going Gone
6. [Jessie Lynn] Sundown Songs- I'm Gone
7. [Texas Hobart] Emaluna- Heart Open Wide
8. [Jessie Lynn] Cassette- Hold You
9. [Texas Hobart] Karen Pernick- Buddha In My Frontseat
   
10. [Jessie Lynn] Soda & His Million Piece Band- Lakeshore (Letter for Early)
11. [Texas Hobart] Shel Silverstein- The Changin' Of The Seasons
12. [Jessie Lynn] Barefoot Surrender- Forgot My Name
13. [Texas Hobart] Jean Ritchie- Moving On Down the River
14. [Jessie Lynn] Stumps duh Clown- Where I'm Bound
15. [Texas Hobart] The Badgett Sister- Travelling Shoes
16. [Jessie Lynn] Boxcar Saints- A Place I Know
17. [Texas Hobart] Tom Waits- On the Other Size of the World
18. [Jessie Lynn] Mischief Brew- Departure Arrival
19. [Texas Hobart] Essie Mae Brooks- Feel Like My Time Ain't Long
20. [Jessie Lynn] Pine Hill Haints- The Parting Glass