Serenity of Sunlight- Smile (Deluxe)

1. Peter Tosh- Here Comes The Sun
2. The Chantells- Fly Away
3. Bob Marley- Pass It On
4. Delroy Wilson- Get Ready (12" Mix)
5. The Congos- Congoman
6. Stephen Marley- Mind Control
7. Peter Tosh- Humiliations
8. Peter Tosh- I Am That I Am
9. Lust- Flowers On The Wall
10. Ahmad Jamal- Theme From M*A*S*H
11. Greory Isaacs- Universal Tribulation
12. Horace Andy- Control Yourself
13. By The Rivers- Hard Life Harsh Times
14. Winston Hewitt- Let It Be
15. Burning Spear- Reggaelation (Resting Place)
16. Rita Marley- Who Feels It Knows It
17. Bob Marley and the Wailers- No Woman No Cry
18. Bunny Wailer- Bide Up
19. Peter Tosh- Whatcha Gonna Do

Yes,I know I already put this up but,I changed it so much it's like a new mix.Roots Raggae means soo much to me.The feelings I feel when I Am Listening & I'm walking around town or sitting at the coffee shop gives me great confidence in mankind and the human spirit.These are both things I appreciate and understand.This is my kind of music.So I feel comfortable sharing it with the world.Enjoy! Again

The Art of Caring

some people don't know how to listen
to hear with clarity
something they may be missing
some people don't know about what it means to be alive
each day a precious chance to get it right
continue to live and survive
some people don't know how to be alone
they are afraid of themselves
when they get out on their own
some people don't understand poetry
exciting pleasure by beauty with the imagination
when I read it to them they don't know it's apart of me
some people don't know who are their friends
hanging out,smiles &IOU's
not understanding the oneness and some friendships end
some people don't understand the different types of love
what are you getting,what are you giving,some love can be unkind
I know how it feels to be unloved,we were born to be loved
some people don't know what it feels like to be free
without a purpose we may not agree,it's when you are feeling good
about yourself and you & me
I wish there was more universal truths
saying some people is like pointing fingers
I pay attention to how I am living
it's easy to see everyone is not like me

George Waldrop- The Art of Caring by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Poetry Defined

Poetry: the art of rhythmical composition, written or spoken, for exciting pleasure by beautiful, imaginative, or elevated thoughts.

Beyond The Blues- Peter Case

Old man on the corner, singin' my life
Playin' guitar with a rusty old knife
And every line that he's singin' rhymes with the truth
And a promise of something, beyond the blues

You and me, darling, took the long way around
Through the wide open countries and the heart attack towns
To every fork in the road, where we've all got to choose
Between darkness and light out beyond the blues

Beyond the shadows, beyond the rain
Beyond the darkness and all the pain
When you're walkin' in circles with holes in your shoes
Love is the road that leads beyond the blues

Old man on the corner, he's been gone for years
And the guitar and the knife blade are rusty with tears
But there's a song that he left us, we'll never lose
That love is the road that leads beyond the blues

Sitting In Therapy

it relieves tension
talking about my thinking
adjusting the extension of my thoughts
talking,making the connections
how I am feeling,how I am living
some one who is listening and interjecting
some one who is getting what I am giving
talking about my thinking
sitting in therapy
I am feeling so good
some one is listening
all I need to feel
to be understood for real
getting something back
is mostly what I lack
listening to input
concerning the positive
human interaction
to hear clear
and contribute to
things that are true
understanding
knowledge of self
the magic that happens with some one else
now when I listen
in touch with my mental health
I am growing with the spirit of self
yes,the human spirit
powerful
and I've been blessed
I've been so many people
I have to tell the truth
a painter
a loner
a poet
a mix-maker
a loser
a prophet
6 years on this journey
I was really sick
I faced it
I didn't like what I see
plenty of changes about me
time has told me
there are many things to be
I like what I see
me in this light
shone bright in the dark of night
me in this light
now,I can be proud of my change
there are many ways to live
busy being free
talking about my thinking
sitting in therapy
thinking about sitting in therapy
biding my time,enjoying the clarity
lucidity of perception
that is so important
I am starting to recover
I am a sight for sore eyes
I saw the light today
finally feel right today
I have a purpose
out in the light of day
being me
being free
in therapy

George Waldrop- Sitting In Therapy by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Serenity of Sunlight- Roots Raggae

Here comes the sun on djtrish's blog got me thinking about my favorite cover by Peter Tosh.Tosh is so great! I love the way he is in touch with pop culture and still remains himself. He was a great man!

This is a little mix of Roots Reggae intended to give the people in my support group something new and different.Enjoy!

1. Peter Tosh- Here Comes the Sun
2. The Chantells- Fly Away
3. Delroy Wilson- Get Ready (12" Mix)
4. The Congos- Congoman
5. Stephen Marley- Mind Control
6. Lust- Flowers On The Wall [Reggae's Gone Country]
7. Gregory Isaacs- Universal Tribulation
8. Horace Andy- Control Yourself
9. By The Rivers- Hard Life Harsh Times (Radio Riddler Remix)
10. Burning Spear- Reggaelation (Resting Place)
11. Bob Marley and the Wailers- No Woman No Cry

The Commonality of Mental Illness

a blessing or a curse
a song or something worse
a formula-charm intended to cause harm
maybe it's fortuitous as the tear in my eye
even with my hollow heart I can still cry
depression and emotional withdrawl
has taught me about inner beauty
perspective and uncommon knowledge
of myself and kindness to all
depression has given me increased sensitivity
the awareness of limitation and the tenderness of love
peace sign and a image of a dove
depression has taught me the meaning of friendship
to have a friend is to be a friend
I know the meaning of life
I am not plain I have struggled through heart ache & pain
I will start with the joy of a passionate heart
I open up freely to my emotions
joy sorrow fear hate & love
I am a good man
I think about you and know how to love
I pay attendtion and listen
in my own conscience that I've been given
I turn my back on greed & hate
I taught myself how to distinctly speak & enunciate
I am both a teacher and student
learning through the experience
living with mental illness
learning to give unto myself
I can be my own best friend
I understand a friend
like a child naive about love
I now understand a love
you can break my stupid heart
I don't put to much into it
I love myself right at the start
I greatly depend on my friends
for giving me the idea of human kindness
I completely understand and won't get let down
you don't need to pick me up
when I'm out in the wind or walking around town
common are the troubles of men and women
confusion and problems are human things
that friendships and relations bring
I have thought about this quite a bit
how average I am with my funny black hat
am I eccentric?
all people are odd
some try to blend in
I don't try
I want to live
live till I die
I want to live
free to just be me
I think that is good sense
to have some dignity

George Waldrop- The Commonality of Mental Illness by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Beyond The Vices & Sins

Slewfoot was a New Orleans street musician.He was with Music Maker Relief Foundation.The beauty of him and his music comes to me now that he is gone.This mix is dedicated to Slewfoot.I'm thinking about you buddy! Wherever your soul may be.Enjoy!

1. George Waldrop- Sitting In Therapy
   
2. Grayson Capps- Washboard Lisa
3. Slewfoot & the Angels- The Last Shuffle
4. Grayson Capps- Jane's Alley Blues
5. Chuck E. Weiss- The Other Side Of Town
6. Peter Case- Beyond The Blues
7. Greg Brown- Lord, I Have Made You a Place in My Heart
8. Paul Simon- Paranoia Blues (Unreleased Version)
9. Gene Pierson- The Only Living Boy In NY
10. Drunk- All Souls Day
11. Simon Joyner- The Black Dog
12. Bright Eyes- Lua
13. Kris Kristofferson- From The Bottle To The Bottom
14. John Prine- A Star, A Jewel, And A Hoax
15. Eleni Mandell- It's Raining
16. Bill Kirchen- Truth Be Told
17. Lydia Loveless- Steve Earle
18. Earl Scruggs And Friends- Passin' Thru
19. Forest Sun- Thanks and Praises
20. Todd Snider- Crooked Piece of Time
21. Stephan Smith- All Together Now

To Have A Friend Is To Be A Friend- Not Looking For Love

Children understand friendship.Friendliness and love are often confused.Friendship is contagious but,love changes and is fickle.Love is a cold and broken Hallelujah.And I don't know a rhyme for Hallelujah.Love is like brush stokes on canvas.Tool marks if you will.So it's easy to track how it was made.I am not looking for love but,a friend to believe in.To share life like children.But,I am not a child.I am a man suffering from need.We always know that feeling when we are not getting what we need.That feeling haunts me so you can see the purpose for my mixing.Songs are the road map to my heart.Enjoy!

1. Jimmy and the Gooch- Can't Please Everybody
2. Amos Lee- Speed Of Sound Of Loneliness
3. Jacob Jones- Purple Dress
4. Lori McKenna- As I Am
5. Catherine Ann Irwin- Power of My Love
6. Lucinda Williams- I'm So Happy I Found You [The Lost Notebooks of Hank Williams]
7. Ray LaMontagne- Gossip In The Grain
8. Leonard Cohen- Hallelujah [Songs From The Road]
9. Megan Melara- Hallelujah
10. Tony Sly- Therapy
11. Loudon Wainwright III- Man Who Couldn't Cry
12. Tom Waits- Last Leaf
13. Erin McKeown- Weight
14. Peter Mulvey- Wings of the Ragman
15. Janis Ian- I'll Give You A Stone If You'll Throw It (Changing Tymes)
16. Penny Lang- Start Again
17. Jesca Hoop- City Bird
18. Bob Dylan- Marchin' to the City (Unreleased, Time Out of Mind)

Sweet Black Angel

Rainy Day Women- Reality Distortion Syndrome

1. Jessica Lea Mayfield- I'll Be The One You Want Someday
2. Beck- We Live Again
3. Grayson Capps- Lorraine's Song
4. Billy Joe Shaver- New York City Girl
5. Oblivians- Do the milkshake
6. Lou Reed- All Through The Night
7. Tom Waits- Get Lost
8. The Rolling Stones- Memory Motel
9. Todd Snider- Just Like Old Times
10. Laura Veirs- Mama, You've Been on My Mind
11. Aaron Neville- To Make Me Who I Am
12. Walter Davis- Call Your Name
13. Weldon "Juke Boy" Bonner- I'm Getting Tired
14. Robert Nighthawk- Black Angel Blues
15. Willie Heath Neal- Ball and Chain
16. Johnny Cash- Ain't No Grave
17. Greg Brown- Lord, I Have Made You a Place in My Heart
18. T-Bone Burnett- Song To A Dead Man
19. Van Morrison- And It Stoned Me
20. Bob Dylan- Rainy Day Women #12 & 35

Holiday Greetings from Ashland Woods

listen so you can hear it
in your heart find the christmas spirit
give in to share in it,good vibes for the season
open up unleash your inhibitions
feel free and don't hold back
if it's the holiday spirit you lack
merry christmas and happy holidays
this little light of mine
I'm going to let it shine
flickering in the winds of change
it's okay to be overwhelmed with the spirit
some people call it:
Reality Distortion Syndrome
for in the spirit we find the power
to present peace to all human beings
people make up the idea of human kindness
only humans are kind in the troubled word
so to make this a world a kind of world
we want to live in
bring on the good will towards men
each one teach one
we are all brothers & sisters of the universe
share in the spirit of human kindess
Holiday Greetings from Ashland Woods
all old acquaintances brought to mind
a sight for sore eyes
"I,I Still Miss Someone"
it's in these spaces those people leave behind
in the days of old ang syne
let's bring in the new
celebrating the good times with the folks we once knew
it all comes down to me and you
the human spirit is powerful
enough so to believe
in written words
poetry & people
think about the poor
when the reality of a picnic
is nothing more
is just a normal fact of life
and every thing don't taste better outside
struggle & strife
a face in the crowd
mixed-up with a broken heart
alone pushing a shopping cart
trying to get lost
packing up to leave town
say goodbye forever to yourself
where god left his shoes
and it's to the ones with the homeless blues
and all your troubles & cares
the world is so big
everyone's got a story
where there is nowhere to sleep
at this time of year is special
outside where there is a white christmas
without a happy ending
so,remember the children who got nothing
and don't get so wrapped up in your family and yourself
understand the christmas spirit
question your faith
you are in the dream that you're living
I'll let you be in my dream
If I can be in your dream

What I Am (existentialism) Heaven In A Split Pea Shell

1. Edie Brickell & New Bohemians- What I Am
2. Forest Sun- No Regrets
3. Lou Reed- I Love You
4. Red Hot Chili Peppers- Soul To Squeeze
5. John Mellencamp- Save Some Time to Dream
6. Butthole Surfers- The Hurdy Gurdy Man
7. Jerry Garcia Band- Oh Babe It Aint No Lie
8. Elizabeth Cotten- Freight Train
9. Fred Neil- I've Got a Secret (Didn't We Shake Sugaree)
10. Laura Veirs- Mama, You've Been on My Mind
11. Geoff Muldaur- Walking to New Orleans
12. Carl LeBlanc- Indian Love Song
13. Dave Van Ronk- Green, Green Rocky Road
14. Cat Stevens- If You Want To Sing Out, Sing Out
15. Uncle Bonsai- Theme Song
16. Leo Kottke/Mike Gordon- Sweet Emotion
17. Jim White- Keep It Meaningful You All
18. Daniel Johnston- Etiquette
19. The Be Good Tanyas- The Littlest Birds
20. Sly & The Family Stone- Everybody Is A Star
21. Richard Thompson- I Want To See The Bright Lights Tonight
22. Neko Case- Buckets Of Rain

Just Trying to get it right.This is my third mix for my support group for people with mental Illness.Having real live people to mix for is such a real treat.Enjoy!


"If someone told me that I could live my life again free of depression provided I was willing to give up the gifts depression has given me--the depth of awareness, the expanded consciousness, the increased sensitivity, the awareness of limitation, the tenderness of love, the meaning of friendship, the apreciation of life, the joy of a passionate heart--I would say, 'This is a Faustian bargain! Give me my depressions. Let the darkness descend. But do not take away the gifts that depression, with the help of some unseen hand, has dredged up from the deep ocean of my soul and strewn along the shores of my life. I can endure darkness if I must; but I cannot live without these gifts. I cannot live without my soul.'"
~ David N. Elkins, Beyond Religion, p. 188

Careful Thought-out Words(for a Degenerate)

not in my dreams I've seen
human beings in remiss
human nature mixed-up in a twist
but,you don't make mistakes
to fail to distinguish between
nothing like a human thing
35 and you don't know right from wrong
and you still call yourself a man
used,abused,confused in a drunken stupor
hate their jobs to the point
all you have to do is quit
but,you are bitter and not a quitter
what are you getting
what are you giving
you don't have anyone to live up to
you are so selfish
it's the drink that has made you selfish
contradiction,you don't take care of yourself
contrary and regardless of everyone else
unmindful that the world is going on all around you
you don't do your part
you have no heart
still nothing is real
you need to awake
from the nightmare
recover & take a brake
people do feel the way you feel
other people can help you find
what is real
what is true
they both have something to do with you
a road of guilt
a road of regret
if you ever get straight
self-inflicted wounds
take the longest to heal
you're not in the position
to make a deal
if you are not at the end of your rope
well,you ought to be
from what you showed me
the night when you were getting free
you acted like an asshole and insulted me
again,you don't make mistakes
you to fail to distinguish between
nothing like a human thing
you are a degenerate
you lack balance
I can't take care of you
you need some one who cares
I'm not in a position to
brightly, I picture my life
free from your problems
you were hangin' around
when I was alone
into your hole
you only bring me down
way down in a hole
a drunk don't worry about his soul
the devil walking around town
to revert to a simple
state of mind
you are not a good person
I know your idea of fun
we are at different places
walking at different paces
I am in control of my different space
I take up
no one controls the space I take
I don't give you the power to brake
my heart
when the beer don't come to the top of your cup
why do I waste my time
with torn-strained rhymes
this is the end
of the time I have come to care
you don't deserve honesty
you don't deserve fair
you deserve that feeling
when nobody is there

George Waldrop- Careful Thought-out Words(for a Degenerate) by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Thought Mechanism- There Are Times When I Don't Know Why

1. Bright Eyes- Waste Of Paint
2. Ween- Birthday Boy
3. Sarah Lee Guthrie- Young Girl's Mind
4. Jolie Holland- Sweet Loving Man
5. Maggie Holland- Most Of The Time
6. Ryan Adams- Lovesick Blues
7. Simon & Garfunkel- A Poem On The Underground Wall [Live From New York City, 1967]
8. Wilco- Please Be Patient With Me
9. Tim Hardin- Black Sheep Boy
10. Marianne Faithfull- Visions Of Johanna
11. Melanie- Sign On the Window
12. Donovan- To Sing For You
13. Laura Veirs- Mama, You've Been on My Mind
14. Derroll Adams- Mr. Rabbit
15. Donovan- Epistle to Derroll
16. Penny Lang- Start Again
17. Bob Marley- One Love , People Get Ready
18. Peter Case- The Open Road Song
19. Beck- Blackhole
20. Hayes Carll- I Don't Wanna Grow Up

George's Computer Art

In the Holloween Spirit

c'mon carve a pumpkin
artistic & gruesome
get out the guts & seeds
eyes & nose are triangles
two teeth and a cackle laugh
I feel like Tom Hanks in Cast Away
jack-o-lantern aftermath
a new friend with a mask to play
I remember when being scared was a game
to play,to run away,always at night never in the day
once my little brother dressed up as a punk rocker
I took him trick or treating
I like that memory when my brother needed me
in the holloween spirit
thankfully my mom went to the pumpkin patch
this year I'll be here to hand out candy
now days being alone with time on my hands
daytime feelings are what really scare me
what I could have been if I didn't change
but,I went straight avoided what I call fate
I'm a better man and I don't get spooked
I will take on the holloween spirit
reminding me of my youth
I think this holiday brings on memories
for all when they were young
as I get older not as much I am scared
those things I say,"is that all there is to it"
maybe next year I will smear
butterfly paste across my face
in the holloween spirit

George Waldrop- In The Holloween Spirit by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Recovery From Within Me

I am alone
I know how to be alone
I have hope
yes,my hope is real
helps with the way
I think & feel
recovery from within me
return to health
restoration of self
and getting back
all that I've lacked
absence of something
needed or customary
greed for my needs
necessary to keep from suffering
conditions of the heart
constituted of the soul
with the oneness of profound art
conscience of mind
redeemed to be bold
something that is confessed
the reality of the truth
breaking the constraints
feeding the hungry soul
with honesty to sooth
the untamed spirit
the wildness of the youth
as I turn back the page
of the young man I used to be
blindly & benignly
sinfully self serving
my every want took the place
of what I need
like:
moral support
human kindness
understanding
until my brain did bleed
I have always love true things
my love for the truth
guided me through my self-destructive youth
now I have to hold back the tears
as I write on into my years
torturing myself trying to stay high
I bare the scars and once I almost did die
self-inflicted wounds take the longest to heal
contemplating suicide remarks
always bad ideas
no I didn't enjoy thinking
the thought mechanism was missing
why am I longing to go back?
I'm talking about things I have lacked
recovery from within me
back to stating the facts
I should have gone to school
I would be wise as an owl
now I'm stupid as a mule
best not to have any regrets
poetry is how I reflect
writing is a purpose
teaching me self-respect

George Waldrop- Recovery From Within Me by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Lonesome November Nights

**SMiLE**

1. Melvern Taylor- Sad and Blue
2. Nick Drake- Blues Run The Game
3. Jenny Scheinman- Johnsburgh, Illinois
4. Gram Parsons- November Nights
5. Jim White- Keep It Meaningful You All
6. Kris Kristofferson- Closer To The Bone
7. Todd Snider- Lonely Girl
8. Wilco- How To Fight Loneliness
9. Lucinda Williams- Lonely Girls
10. Bob Marley & The Wailers- No Woman No Cry
11. Laura Veirs- Mama, You've Been on My Mind
12. Elizabeth Cook- Heroin Addict Sister
13. Velvet Underground- Sunday Morning
14. Gal Holiday and the Honky Tonk Revue- Plastic Jesus
15. Bruce Springsteen- Reason To Believe
16. Greg Brown- Let the Mystery Be
17. Brian Wilson- Good Vibrations [SMiLE]
18. Modern Lovers- Girl friend
19. Bright Eyes- Waste Of Paint
20. Irma Thomas- It's Raining
21. Townes Van Zandt- Still Lookin' For You

November Nights

By: Gram Parsons

You say that you're restless
You say that you know me too well
You've seen all my best and you've heard
all the stories I tell
You think you've been taken for granted,
you're probably right.

I remember a November Night,
when the dawn on your doorway
shone white with frost
and the soft love that always began
with the touch of your hand
and recall the mornings that tossed
your hair in the wind.

Time's made it meaningless
I'm not the same, you can tell
But whyam I leaving
unless time had only meant well?

There's nothing left now to excite you...
no reason to try.

I remember a candlelit sky
and the summer surrounding the ground
where you and I lay
and though we were always alone
with our secretsknown,
we both were aware and afraid
the closeness might end.

My love's like a dancer
she weaves through the dangers complete
with well rehearsed answers and
rational reasons for feet.

But if it decreases or ceases to always be right
I remember a November Night
when the dawn on your doorway
shone white with frost
and the soft love that always began
with the touch of your hand
and recall the mornings that to

Happy Holloween- Jack-O-Lantern

Last Thoughts On Woody Guthrie- Bob Dylan

When yer head gets twisted and yer mind grows numb
When you think you're too old, too young, too smart or too dumb
When yer laggin' behind an' losin' yer pace
In a slow-motion crawl of life's busy race
No matter what yer doing if you start givin' up
If the wine don't come to the top of yer cup
If the wind's got you sideways with with one hand holdin' on
And the other starts slipping and the feeling is gone
And yer train engine fire needs a new spark to catch it
And the wood's easy findin' but yer lazy to fetch it
And yer sidewalk starts curlin' and the street gets too long
And you start walkin' backwards though you know its wrong
And lonesome comes up as down goes the day
And tomorrow's mornin' seems so far away
And you feel the reins from yer pony are slippin'
And yer rope is a-slidin' 'cause yer hands are a-drippin'
And yer sun-decked desert and evergreen valleys
Turn to broken down slums and trash-can alleys
And yer sky cries water and yer drain pipe's a-pourin'
And the lightnin's a-flashing and the thunder's a-crashin'
And the windows are rattlin' and breakin' and the roof tops a-shakin'
And yer whole world's a-slammin' and bangin'
And yer minutes of sun turn to hours of storm
And to yourself you sometimes say
"I never knew it was gonna be this way
Why didn't they tell me the day I was born"
And you start gettin' chills and yer jumping from sweat
And you're lookin' for somethin' you ain't quite found yet
And yer knee-deep in the dark water with yer hands in the air
And the whole world's a-watchin' with a window peek stare
And yer good gal leaves and she's long gone a-flying
And yer heart feels sick like fish when they're fryin'
And yer jackhammer falls from yer hand to yer feet
And you need it badly but it lays on the street
And yer bell's bangin' loudly but you can't hear its beat
And you think yer ears might a been hurt
Or yer eyes've turned filthy from the sight-blindin' dirt
And you figured you failed in yesterdays rush
When you were faked out an' fooled white facing a four flush
And all the time you were holdin' three queens
And it's makin you mad, it's makin' you mean
Like in the middle of Life magazine
Bouncin' around a pinball machine
And there's something on yer mind you wanna be saying
That somebody someplace oughta be hearin'
But it's trapped on yer tongue and sealed in yer head
And it bothers you badly when your layin' in bed
And no matter how you try you just can't say it
And yer scared to yer soul you just might forget it
And yer eyes get swimmy from the tears in yer head
And yer pillows of feathers turn to blankets of lead
And the lion's mouth opens and yer staring at his teeth
And his jaws start closin with you underneath
And yer flat on your belly with yer hands tied behind
And you wish you'd never taken that last detour sign
And you say to yourself just what am I doin'
On this road I'm walkin', on this trail I'm turnin'
On this curve I'm hanging
On this pathway I'm strolling, in the space I'm taking
In this air I'm inhaling
Am I mixed up too much, am I mixed up too hard
Why am I walking, where am I running
What am I saying, what am I knowing
On this guitar I'm playing, on this banjo I'm frailin'
On this mandolin I'm strummin', in the song I'm singin'
In the tune I'm hummin', in the words I'm writin'
In the words that I'm thinkin'
In this ocean of hours I'm all the time drinkin'
Who am I helping, what am I breaking
What am I giving, what am I taking
But you try with your whole soul best
Never to think these thoughts and never to let
Them kind of thoughts gain ground
Or make yer heart pound
But then again you know why they're around
Just waiting for a chance to slip and drop down
"Cause sometimes you hear'em when the night times comes creeping
And you fear that they might catch you a-sleeping
And you jump from yer bed, from yer last chapter of dreamin'
And you can't remember for the best of yer thinking
If that was you in the dream that was screaming
And you know that it's something special you're needin'
And you know that there's no drug that'll do for the healin'
And no liquor in the land to stop yer brain from bleeding
And you need something special
Yeah, you need something special all right
You need a fast flyin' train on a tornado track
To shoot you someplace and shoot you back
You need a cyclone wind on a stream engine howler
That's been banging and booming and blowing forever
That knows yer troubles a hundred times over
You need a Greyhound bus that don't bar no race
That won't laugh at yer looks
Your voice or your face
And by any number of bets in the book
Will be rollin' long after the bubblegum craze
You need something to open up a new door
To show you something you seen before
But overlooked a hundred times or more
You need something to open your eyes
You need something to make it known
That it's you and no one else that owns
That spot that yer standing, that space that you're sitting
That the world ain't got you beat
That it ain't got you licked
It can't get you crazy no matter how many
Times you might get kicked
You need something special all right
You need something special to give you hope
But hope's just a word
That maybe you said or maybe you heard
On some windy corner 'round a wide-angled curve

But that's what you need man, and you need it bad
And yer trouble is you know it too good
"Cause you look an' you start getting the chills

"Cause you can't find it on a dollar bill
And it ain't on Macy's window sill
And it ain't on no rich kid's road map
And it ain't in no fat kid's fraternity house
And it ain't made in no Hollywood wheat germ
And it ain't on that dimlit stage
With that half-wit comedian on it
Ranting and raving and taking yer money
And you thinks it's funny
No you can't find it in no night club or no yacht club
And it ain't in the seats of a supper club
And sure as hell you're bound to tell
That no matter how hard you rub
You just ain't a-gonna find it on yer ticket stub
No, and it ain't in the rumors people're tellin' you
And it ain't in the pimple-lotion people are sellin' you
And it ain't in no cardboard-box house
Or down any movie star's blouse
And you can't find it on the golf course
And Uncle Remus can't tell you and neither can Santa Claus
And it ain't in the cream puff hair-do or cotton candy clothes
And it ain't in the dime store dummies or bubblegum goons
And it ain't in the marshmallow noises of the chocolate cake voices
That come knockin' and tappin' in Christmas wrappin'
Sayin' ain't I pretty and ain't I cute and look at my skin
Look at my skin shine, look at my skin glow
Look at my skin laugh, look at my skin cry
When you can't even sense if they got any insides
These people so pretty in their ribbons and bows
No you'll not now or no other day
Find it on the doorsteps made out-a paper mache¥
And inside it the people made of molasses
That every other day buy a new pair of sunglasses
And it ain't in the fifty-star generals and flipped-out phonies
Who'd turn yuh in for a tenth of a penny
Who breathe and burp and bend and crack
And before you can count from one to ten
Do it all over again but this time behind yer back
My friend
The ones that wheel and deal and whirl and twirl
And play games with each other in their sand-box world
And you can't find it either in the no-talent fools
That run around gallant
And make all rules for the ones that got talent
And it ain't in the ones that ain't got any talent but think they do
And think they're foolin' you
The ones who jump on the wagon
Just for a while 'cause they know it's in style
To get their kicks, get out of it quick
And make all kinds of money and chicks
And you yell to yourself and you throw down yer hat
Sayin', "Christ do I gotta be like that
Ain't there no one here that knows where I'm at
Ain't there no one here that knows how I feel
Good God Almighty
THAT STUFF AIN'T REAL"

No but that ain't yer game, it ain't even yer race
You can't hear yer name, you can't see yer face
You gotta look some other place
And where do you look for this hope that yer seekin'
Where do you look for this lamp that's a-burnin'
Where do you look for this oil well gushin'
Where do you look for this candle that's glowin'
Where do you look for this hope that you know is there
And out there somewhere
And your feet can only walk down two kinds of roads
Your eyes can only look through two kinds of windows
Your nose can only smell two kinds of hallways
You can touch and twist
And turn two kinds of doorknobs
You can either go to the church of your choice
Or you can go to Brooklyn State Hospital
You'll find God in the church of your choice
You'll find Woody Guthrie in Brooklyn State Hospital

And though it's only my opinion
I may be right or wrong
You'll find them both
In the Grand Canyon
At sundown

Bob Dylan- Last Thoughts On Woody Guthrie by Texhobart on Mixcloud

The Death of The Smoker(Out of Fire & Ash)

two separate places
walking at different paces
taking up empty spaces
I am in this world
I am not of this world
misunderstanding the oneness of this world
it all comes down to you and me
we can't be friends
so just let it be
you don't know what love is...
I am free
your emotions tangle
as your guitar jangles
you yell at yourself
in desperate tones
call yourself stupid
your ignorance groans
you hate yourself
my blues do moan
I can't have any part of you
I need people around me
that love true things
yes,searching & seeking the truth
feeds the soul like a new thing
learned,each one teach one
you I would love to burn
but, in my kind way
I shall live full & free
of you,just let it be
no smoking,see

The Death of The Smoker(Out of Fire & Ash) by Texhobart on Mixcloud

How to be Alone

I taught myself to be alone
how I lived in the country
I learned from myself about
what is sadness
what is beautiful
I taught myself to be alone
even when I didn't like it
it takes a strong will to get by alone
most people can't do it
they are nothing when they are alone
I taught myself to be alone
I am still always wanting for some one to say hello
I have taught myself to be tolerant of myself
some people think it would feel like a prison
concern primarily with my own thoughts and feelings
but,I think I am a free-thinking man
deep within my profound mental activity
I taught myself to be alone
sometimes my self-esteem may vary
causing to be different from something else
no one is giving me moral support
no one is helping with positive input
I have to be my own teacher
the student of my soul
I listen to the wind blowing through my soul
within the safety and comfort
of the change of my recovery
I taught myself to be alone
I had to be there for myself
in my times of worry & heartache
hoping for some one to reach out to me
but, no one does and I feel needy
I know it's going to get better
when I have people around I can trust
it's in these human things
pertaining to the social aspect of people
that I find comfort and solace
alleviate or relieve my blues weary mind
time has taught me how to live free
free from suffering anxiety & sorrow
I have the chance to make good on this life
touching the people I know and care about
I tell myself alone ain't so bad
but,I have no one to remember with
I tell myself alone ain't so bad
but, the days creep into years
I tell myself alone ain't so bad
I taught myself to be alone

George Waldrop- How To Be Alone by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Covers from Mr. Square

1. Jack Johnson- We're Going to Be Friends (The White Stripes)
2. Three Legged Fox- I Am (That I Am) (Peter Tosh)
3. Katherine Ramirez- Going to California (Led Zeppelin)
4. Horse Feathers- Drain You (Nirvana)
5. Sun Kil Moon- I'll Be There (Jackson 5)
6. Youn Sun Nah- Jockey Full Of Bourbon (Tom Waits)
7. Anders Parker- Coming Down Again (The Rolling Stones)
8. Kathryn Williams- Candy Says (Lou Reed)
9. Lisa Wahlandt- Enjoy The Silence (Depeche Mode)
10. Custom Kings- Boys Of Summer (Don Henley)
11. Jacob Golden- Cry Baby Cry (The Beatles)
12. Jimmy Scott- Almost Blue (Elvis Costello)
13. Marc Cohn- The Only Living Boy in New York (Paul Simon)
14. Oliver Swain- I'm On Fire (Bruce Springsteen)
15. The Wailin' Jennys- Old Man (Neil Young)
16. Vetiver- The Swimming Song (Loudon Wainwright III)
17. Denison Witmer- I'll Keep It with Mine (Bob Dylan)
18. Crooked Still- Last Fair Deal Gone Down (Robert Johnson)
19. Great Lake Swimmers & T. Dekker- Song Sung Blue (Neil Diamond)
20. Jessica Lea Mayfield- Words of Love (Buddy Holly)
21. Cry Cry Cry- Lord, I Have Made You a Place in My Heart (Greg Brown)
22. Teddy Thompson + Rufus Wainwright- King of the Road (Roger Miller)
23. Ben Gibbard / Feist- Train Song (Vashti Bunyan)
    

Cheaters,Liars,Outlaws & Fallen Angels

1. Mary Gauthier- Last Of The Hobo Kings [Between Daylight And Dark]
2. Mary Gauthier- Camelot Motel [Filth & Fire]
3. Mary Gauthier- The Foundling [The Foundling]
4. Mary Gauthier- Empty Spaces [Mercy Now]
5. Mary Gauthier- Wheel Inside The Wheel [Mercy Now]
6. Mary Gauthier- I Drink [Mercy Now]
7. Mary Gauthier- March 11, 1962 [The Foundling]
8. Mary Gauthier- The Other Side Of Free [Dixie Kitchen]
9. Mary Gauthier- The Sun Fades The Color of Everything [Filth & Fire]
10. Mary Gauthier- I Don't Know Nothing About Love [Dixie Kitchen]
11. Mary Gauthier- Drag Queens in Limousines [Genesis]
12. Mary Gauthier- Long Way To Hell [Filth & Fire]
13. Mary Gauthier- Falling Out Of Love [Mercy Now]
14. Mary Gauthier- Walk Through The Fire [Filth & Fire]
15. Mary Gauthier- Thanksgiving [Between Daylight And Dark]
16. Mary Gauthier- Christmas In Paradise [Filth & Fire]
17. Mary Gauthier- I Ain't Got No Home [Genesis]

Mary Gauthier is so skillful with her songwriting it makes me proud to have gusto to put together this mix.She is a beautiful songwriter...

I hope everyone gets to take in her talent.Enjoy!

Last Of The Hobo Kings

Steam Train Maury died last night
His wife Wanda by his side
Caught the Westbound out of here
Hopped the high irons to the by and by
They say he jumped ten thousand trains
Rode a million miles for free
Helped out at VA hospitals and penitentiary’s
Dandy Dave, Rusty Nails and Sweet Lady Sugar Cane
Dead Eye Kate and the Baloney Kid raise their cups tonight in Steam Train’s name
Senators, congressmen, puppets on a string
Among the windswept vagabonds Steam Train was the king
The last of the hobo kings, the last of the hobo kings

Now bums just drink and wander round
Tramps dream and wander too
But a hobo was a pioneer who preferred to work for food
He knew how his nation’s doing
By the length of a side walk cigarette butt
Born with an aching wanderlust
Embedded in his gut
Hounded, beaten, laughed at, broke
Chased out of every town
With a walking stick scepter
And a shredded coffee can crown
The last of the hobo king, the last of the hobo kings

The last free men are hoboes
Steinbeck said, and he paid cash
And the stories that he bought from them
Helped write the Grapes of Wrath
But boxcars have been sealed for years
And trespassers do time
And the railroad yards are razor wired
And hoboing’s a crime
So here’s to you Steam Train Maury
Hold that Westbound tight
As you ride off into history
The last hobo, the last ride
The last of the hobo king, the last of the hobo kings

Rejoice In The Blue Notes In God's House

Love,Peace & Happiness

This was made to share in my new support group for people with mental illnesses.Since I moved I have a group to go to in walking distance from my house.I love it.Enjoy!

1. Lesley Riddle- Step by Step
2. Hobart Smith- Uncloudy Day
3. Mississippi John Hurt- Beulah Land
4. Otha Turner;Corey Harris- Lay My Burden Down
5. Caroline Herring- Lay My Burden Down
6. The Staple Singers- Be Careful of Stones That You Throw
7. Hank Williams- Farther Along
8. Washington Phillips- What Are They Doing In Heaven Today
9. Bob Dylan- Every Grain Of Sand
10. The Paschall Brothers- Ease My Troublin' Mind
11. Eric Bibb- With My Maker I Am One
12. Rev.Pearly Brown- Help me to understand
13. The Carter Family- The Sun of the Soul
14. the Gourds- Hallelujah Shine
15. The Paschall Brothers- God Said He Would Move / On The Right Road Now
16. Pops Staples- Why Am I Treated So Bad
17. Kid Prince Moore- Sign Of Judgement
18. Paul Robeson- All God's Children Got Wings
19. Martin Luther King- I Have A Dream Speech
20. Brother Kirk- The Ballad of MLK
21. Nina Simone- Why (The King Of Love Is Dead)
22. Woody Guthrie- This Land is Your Land

Life Is Too Short To Love Everybody & Too Long To Hate

1. The Gourds- Steeple Full Of Swallows
2. David Grisman, John Hartford & Mike Seeger- Windy Mountain
3. Robert Earl Keen- The Front Porch Song (Live)
4. Michael Jerome Browne & The Twin Rivers String Band- Pay Day
5. Lisa Loeb and Elizabeth Mitchell- Big Rock Candy Mountain
6. Mike Seeger- Jennie Jenkins
7. Tom Paxton- I Remember Loving You
8. Tex Ritter- Rye Whiskey
9. Stumps duh Clown- Where I'm Bound
10. The Badgett Sister- Travelling Shoes
11. Eilen Jewell- You Can't Take My Song Away
12. Todd Snider- The Ballad of the Devil's Backbone Tavern
13. Melanie- Carolina In My Mind
14. Old Crow Medicine Show- Poor Man
15. Skip James- Keep Your Lamp Trimmed And Burning
16. Tara Nevins- Fall on My Knees
17. Reeltime Travelers- Halleluiah
18. Otha Turner- Shimmy She Wobble II
19. Billy Joe Shaver- Serious Souls
20. Nanci Griffith- Can't Help But Wonder Where I'm Bound
21. Tim O'brien- Lay Down Your Weary Tune
22. Robert Earl Keen- The Road Goes On Forever

Thinking About The Grace To Think

Thinking About The Grace To Think intro

What is poetry?
I looked it up:
the art of rhythmical composition, written or spoken, for exciting pleasure by beautiful,

imaginative, or elevated thoughts.

Thinking About The Grace To Think
is apart of me.When I listen it shows the reality of me.I like how I see myself in this light.
I hope you find my poetry to be unpretentious and bright.A poet is a naked man.I

understand this completely.As I bare my soul,I give to you freely some you may

understand me better.I would like to be your friend.

Poetry has helped me to listen better and listening is one of the nicest things you can do

for some one.

1. Thinking About The Grace To Think intro
2. George Waldrop- The Wind of My Soul
3. George Waldrop- Hard Times Ain't Gonna Rule My Mind
4. George Waldrop- Serendipity of Mental Illness
5. George Waldrop- Disability In Mind(78's & Dreams)
6. George Waldrop- Ode To Bent Butts & Cigarette Stubs
7. George Waldrop- Holy Are The Visions(Change)
8. George Waldrop- I Am A Good Person
9. George Waldrop- The Walkin' Man
10. George Waldrop- Heart Full of Rain
11. George Waldrop- Breaking The Constraints of a Individual
12. George Waldrop- Recovery In Mind
13. George Waldrop- Exclusion of All Else
14. George Waldrop- Many Ways To Live
    
15. George Waldrop- The Way People Are
16. George Waldrop- Bringing Reality Back Down Into Perspective
    
17. George Waldrop- Afternoon Beautyshop Charms
    
18. George Waldrop- Love Changes
19. George Waldrop- The Artist Among The Flowers(For Daniel Johnston)
    
20. George Waldrop- Betwixt Pickin' & Weedin'(all summer)
21. George Waldrop- Sobriety Blues

George Waldrop- Thinking About The Grace To Think by Texhobart on Mixcloud

The Wind of My Soul

disappear into the mirror
where it takes me
my music only knows
I don't know how to be alone
the hurtful & inconvenient truth
I find beauty in the master's hand
you can't fool the youths
god only knows where the songs go
I feel the wind of my soul
the season and the leaves blow
my rain can is full
from the weeds in my heart
and the garden of my mind
time is the place I'm in
space is the empty hand
the memories of the dream
understanding the truth of my being
wondering aimlessly
through the flowers
artist in the garden
none of these flowers are alike
snowflakes on the wind of change
enough to be celebrated
observable change

George Waldrop- The Wind of My Soul by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Rust Belt Jessie- Bound For Glory- Big Rock Candy Mountain

Jessie Lynn- Bound For Glory- Big Rock Candy Mountain by Texhobart on Mixcloud

How To Live Alone

Many Ways To Live

1. Jim White- Keep It Meaningful You All
2. Tom Waits- Another Man's Vine
3. David Dondero- Lone Rose
4. Johnny Dowd- Average Guy
5. Lou Reed- So Alone
6. The Rolling Stones- Who's Been Sleeping Here?
7. Ray Charles- Alone In The City
8. T. Rex- Spaceball Ricochet
9. Joe Strummer- Diggin The New
10. Ralph McTell- One Too Many Mornings
11. Todd Snider- Lonely Girl
12. Sonny & The Sunsets- Too Young To Burn
13. The Duhks- It's Alright Ma (I'm Only Bleeding)
14. Syd Barrett- Bob Dylan Blues
15. Donovan- Mellow Yellow (Live on BBC radio 1967)
16. Robert Earl Keen- Lonely Feeling
17. Cat Stevens- Maybe You're Right
    
18. George Waldrop- Many Ways To Live

Many Ways To Live

I have lived this life in many ways
walked the pathway less traveled
I've seen the tracks & footprints of other men
sometimes I chose not be who I am
to live on another man's vine
life is a collective scheme
I let the visionaries guide the way
it turned me into a stranger when I look close
I followed the pathway of drunk libertines
now they are ghosts on the crowded steets of my mind
now places I used to walk come back to me in scenes
when I am working at my desk
people and places come back to me in scenes
life is a collective scheme
I let people and things change and define me
a freethinker since I changed
I know how to be alone
working on my self-esteem
realistic respect for or favorable impression
I am the oneself,myself and the reality of me
patiently I sit through a nicotine fit
with fortitude and calm I know I belong
I am not born to smoke
I hate trendy things
like going along with the crowd
I've lived that way too
t-shirts & baseball caps that say nothing important
it's only now that I realize my individuality
and my personal nature is soo important
enough to believe in the reality of me
I've taken the road to recovery
I've taken the responsibility for me
my mental health
how I see myself in this light
I ride on the winds of change
I feel I will be alright
endless revisions
and hard decisions
make me who I am
acceptance & approval
of myself
how I want to live
making it easy to love me
how I want to live
to give my love in return
how I want to live

George Waldrop- Many Ways To Live by Texhobart on Mixcloud

Hard Times Ain't Gonna Rule My Mind

I've paid my dues getting through
benignly I sat and watched dull rainy days
I look up to the sky and the time passes me by
blind for time in these daytime emotions
softly the blues moan and I think of rhymes
Hard Times Ain't Gonna Rule My Mind


these winds of change chill me right to the bone
put another pot coffee on,as I sit home alone
days are filled with real things like my prayers
softly I mumble to myself about my wants & cares
in my mind my needs are underlined
Hard Times Ain't Gonna Rule My Mind


endless revisions and the cigarettes are smoking by themselves
safe and isolated from this mean old world
hula-hoops & therapy groups
I stop the clock to remember only humans are kind
living inbetween intimacy vs. isolation of development in my time
Hard Times Ain't Gonna Rule My Mind

George Waldrop- Hard Times Ain't Gonna Rule My Mind by Texhobart on Mixcloud